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Psycho Logical

by Femali

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1.
Leniency 07:29
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Verse Under scrutiny They stare me down The universe could get comedy for the day I planned it out Worked in my head I am terrified, logic in total disarray Chorus I try to find my self-esteem however Everyone has spotted by now I am Drowning in my Atlantic anxiety I try to find a part of me that could have Overshadowed inner fear but I’m already exposed by society Verse Under Scrutiny You’re staring me down I rehearsed the right words and syllables to say I see your face They’re watching me You and everyone got your comedy for the day Refrain I would have preferred to attempt this with privacy I need some leniency can somebody kill me It would make my humiliation go away I learned not to go anywhere again Refrain This Faux pas is compromising all my sanity Give me some leniency and just fucking kill me I just want this memory to go away And no one throws this in my face again I plead
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Grand Canyons 07:31
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Verse Where are you walking from? What is your situation Are you needing a place to stay I don’t want you to spend the night with frostbite Did no one have empathy It’s my opportunity To try to do what’s right Chorus How could you do such a thing to yourself Did you know that duct tape will make it worse You found it necessary to put Grand Canyons in your arms Why would you put yourself through this much pain Did you know there’s methods to clear your mind I just can’t wrap my head around your Grand Canyons in your arms Verse Get those booze away from here Give me an explanation Why you needed a place to stay Left on the streets to spend the night with frostbite In a world with apathy It’s okay you can crash with me I sure hope this is right Bridge Now I know why This isn’t a first They tried, they cried You showed no effort Now I know why In front of someone’s young They fought, they want You to fix yourself Do you know why They booted you out You’d never hurt a child But you inflicted pain Grand Canyons in your arms Right in front of a child
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Don't Wanna Remember 08:08
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Verse Life’s going decent for me Gradually getting my life together I continue healing Despite my scar, I will have forever I tried arduously to repress Any thought that might weight me down I tried arduously to erase Time for me to grow Chorus I’m still recovering after all these years (I don’t wanna remember you) I am discovering all the strengths in me (I don’t wanna remember you) Your acts were sickening, they’re still haunting me (I don’t wanna remember you) But you’re still interesting, the idea is beautiful (I don’t wanna remember you) Wondering why I can’t rid my mind of you Verse I guess things are still good for me Spotting you again, no big deal Reopened the wound in me I’ll ride this out to see how I’ll feel I tried rigorously to gain strength From memories which bring me down I tried rigorously to move on Time for me to grow Bridge I am still struggling after all these years (I don’t wanna remember you) You’re still reminding me of the me I hate (I don’t wanna remember you) Was close to leveling the mind and soul (I don’t wanna remember you) But now I’m back at square one don’t mind me (I don’t wanna remember you) Looks like you won again, I was doing just fine Many more years to come to piece together what you’ve broken Looks like you won again, Kicking myself for weakness I drank the poison and I wait on you to die
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Sorrow Saturation 07:02
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Verse In distress for a while now, worry no more I am here to the rescue now, C’mon let’s take a walk Tell me all of your story now, I will be all ears There will be no judgement You can come to me, I’ll always be here Honey, could you not cover your face Chorus Hey, look at me Feel free to drown my shoulders, they’ll saturate your sorrows Come lay by me Place your head right on my shoulders I’ll be right here tomorrow morning Verse Stay as long as you need dear, new sanctuary I promise I’ll always be here, you need anything Happy to see you smile now, to know you’re safe with me Pain will never find you You can run to me, my arms are open Honey never hide your tears away from me Bridge Finally, this is real, never felt so happy Elated, twitter-pated, this smile cannot leave me Never mind, of course you would Gradually work your way up Feeling dense, ignored the obvious signs Chivalry is the surest way to sleep alone Just accept you’ll be forever on your own You’re opportunity, you knocked at her door She got all she could from you, now she’s moving on Say goodbye, nullify Should have known, too good to be true Throw away, your thought of me Was never born according to you Lead me on, now you’re gone You are moving up in the world now Feel forlorn, soul is torn Kick myself fell for another con Hey, did it again I’m needing someone’s shoulders to saturate my sorrows Please, comfort me I’m drowning in my sorrows, might not be here tomorrow Hey it is me I only have a pillow to saturate my sorrows That was my last leech Gonna strike the man I see in the mirror To cut vertical canyons all over me (Go on live your happy life) I’m falling asleep I’m drowning the floor Saturating my gore This room’s gonna stink Making friends with the flies While I’m falling asleep Tell the world goodnight No more exploiting me Who will notice me gone
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Fell in Love with a Face 09:23
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Verse Fell in love with a face, a very heavenly face Chasing someone beautiful who could do no wrong Fell in love with a thought, a super wonderful thought Brainstorming how to go about impressing this thought So in love with this face, there is no absolute way She’d be too generic just look at this face I’m running out of time, she doesn’t have much time I’m giving it up now she’s talking to me Prechorus I didn’t quite make it, terrible timing I will keep striving, Just need refining Chorus She’s not interested I’ll alter my identity now there is always next time I will keep striving She’s not interested Need refining, her preference is binding Oh well what’s new What to do Trying to Should’ve could’ve would’ve why not Either way I scared her off again Verse Still in love with this face, such an alluring face Oh well at least I got her talking to me She told me what she needs, I got whatever she needs Whatever excuse to get her in front of me I wonder what she is like, I do not care what she’s like A face like that, I’ll deal with her cruelty I am in love with her face, am committed to her face Til death do us part, the idea and me Bridge I believed she was worthwhile (after failing to) Win her after all this time (of trying to) On the brighter side of things (despite failing to) At least I catered to her needs (tried to hard to) Chorus I’m not interested I’ll retain my identity now, knowing my self-worth I will keep striving You’re not interesting Done exploiting, I am ignoring Avoiding you What is new? Leave me be I don’t need you You’re generic I’ve done enough enabling you to just Use your face for usage of the human Race, you use your face to cover up your Vile, heinous soul, robs people of their Minds, their worth, their souls Good luck living with yourself
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Vent 11:55
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Verse It’s been a bit since I have Put myself out there for the wolves It has been quite a while ago Not ready to drown in gatherings In an era a long time ago Thought I could be another one The trial and error got to me But I could sure use a one on one Chorus Come here, I need you here I need you right by my side Come here I need you to hear I need someone to listen to my cry Verse Memories are entrapping me I cannot stop kicking myself Wouldn’t it be so nice if I could just do something right for once If I could achieve normalcy I’d be able to live with myself Trial and error fucked with me I’m in dire need of this one on one Bridge It’s been forever since I’ve been worthy of human contact It’s been a while since they decided to run me out It is impossible to live with myself remembering All of my wrongdoings while no one lets me live them down My sincere apologies burdening you with venting I really need someone out in the world to care about me My sincere apologies do you notice me trying Do you hear me cry for help, is anyone out there Ending I understand my existence is so benign I’ll go away far away Just another faux pas did you have fun humiliating me, I’ll go away Leave me alone I am way too busy taking my life away, I’ve gone away If only I could have been born with a slight sense of normalcy, I’ve gone away

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released April 27, 2019

Music and Lyrics written and recorded by Evan Ryan

Produced and Mixed by Bret Liber

Recorded at Red Roof recordings

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Femali Kansas City, Kansas

During the many years of being in and out of bands, Founder/Composer Evan Ryan decided he needed to do it himself in order for it to be done right.

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